It's not unbroken anymore;

2008-08-05T17:45:00.000-07:00

okay, i confirm not using blogger le. HEHE. i using lj now. love lj ttm okay!
BUT I LOVE YUNHO THE MOST!!! I LOVE DBSK!! heh.
anway, so moved. shall keep this blog here.

http://runawayylove.livejournal.com

P.S. Live to love DBSK, esp YUNHO(L)!
bye, see me at lj.

2008-07-22T02:09:00.000-07:00

okay, im so sorry kayxz. wanted to move. but the other side haven ready yet. so currently using lj. im so busy-cum-worn out these few days. plus sch stress is alot sia. don even uds what cher trying to say bout sci. sci suck can. irritating. i cant even grasp what dungg is it about can. urghhh. im so ----. hope someone would come and help coach me. (fika, yknow who right?:*) haiz. im friggin' tired now. anytime also can sleep. esp in class. hope i can beat the sleeping devil. hehe. wish me luck.

byebye(gtg study for some stoopid math and sci test alr)

2008-07-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

moving soon.
see when kayxz.
have so much to say.
but dont know where to start from.
so many different/mixed feelings bottled up.
dont know who to speak to.
dont know whether im able to control.

difficult to break free;

2008-07-05T23:59:00.000-07:00

/edited-

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING SENIORS!

WE(BRAVO'08) REALLY LOVE YOU!

WE WILL REMEMBER YOU ALWAYS!:)

"i shouldn't love you, but i want to"

i really miss you'all.

i just cant get over it.

i wan to, after seeing how happy and carefree you'all are now.

but its hard to let you go,

esp when i feel so attached to you'all.

thanks for the wonderful memories you have given me.

its deeply engraved in my heart,

and i will rmbr it for life.

all the care and concern you have given me,

i really appreciate it.

TO SNR XIANG LIANG AND SNR RYHAN:
Both of you are the BEST NCOs ever, we really love you.

it should not be both of you saying sorry for not being the NCOs we wanted,

it should be we saying sorry for not being the cadets that you wanted and expected.

im are sorry for disappointing you.

im are sorry if we did not reach your expectations.

im are sorry if we let you down.

im sorry if i kept giving you trouble and worries becos of my ankle.

thanks for the tender-loving-care(TLC) you seniors have shown me.

i really love you seniors!(it may sound mushy and disgusting, but its from the bottom of my heart)

I MISS YOU ALOT, SENIORS!

i really do.

but, from another perspective,

i will and of course, open my arms to welcome the next wonderfuls seniors as specialists.

i will give my full cooperation,

and try not to disappoint them.

i will listen to them, and try not to make them feel angry.

i know its going to be a tough year ahead, but im going to perserver till the end.

and hold onto my belief, or should i say,

BRAVO'08's belief, "DESTINED TO LEAD"

we are destined to lead, and by putting in more effort and hard work,

we will succeed one day.

SENIORS, I WISH THAT YOU'ALL WILL EXCEL IN YOUR 'O's AND DO EXTREMELY WELL SO THAT YOU'ALL WILL BE ABLE TO GET INTO YOUR DREAM JC! WORK HARD, ALL THE BEST! WE(BRAVO'08)HAVE FAITH IN YOU!!

you're REALLY a rare find;

2008-07-05T04:10:00.000-07:00

Hi i'm Afiqah :)

Qiaoyi, you shldve known better than to use that as your p/w. Loser sia HAHAHA kidding only.

Anyway, i'm here to inform everyone that qiaoyi is the most loser-est person ive ever met after 14 yrs of living HAHA. Qiaoyi, rmb our bus ride just now? i'm still laughing at it. Thanks for making me laugh HAHAHAH. Joke of the Day sia you~ :P

2008-07-01T17:16:00.000-07:00

im sinking deeper.
i know i've to get out of the 'quick sand' NOW.
but 'quick sand' is stopping myself from doing so.
i cant help it.
i wan to save myself too.
i wan to pull myself out from this.
but everytime when i almost make it out,
'quick sand' pulls and stop me from getting out.
why must it do this?
whenever i make a decision to get out,
part of me cant bear to,
but i have to bear with the unbearable,
and do what's better for me.
to get hurt now,
than to die later.
but 'quick sand' will never let me go.
'quick sand' don understand,
but its silently stopping me from making decisions good for myself.
its preventing me from letting go.
its not easy for me,
just to muster my courage to let my hands both free.
yet it pulls me back. always.
i will never get out of this 'quick sand';
forever.
i have never got myself in 'quick sand' before,
and i cant get myself out.
what do i do?
fika, any advice?
*don give me advice that you know i cant get myself to do*
i really have no idea how to help myself.
should i just let things be,
and get hurt again, again, and once again?
im in such a dilemma:(

letting go wasnt my choice;

2008-06-29T18:14:00.000-07:00

ohh man.
time seems to fly past quick but slow
(i know it sounds contradicting,
i dono why, i just have this kind of feeling)
and i will feel sad:(
but whenever i see their albums or DVD搞笑幕后花絮,
i simply cheerrup.
gosh!
just watched the 2nd season ytd.
i think they cant be compared to them(below!)

the first season of the singing comp will always be the best!

their voices are damn good.

they are damn united.

they are as close as blood ties

when they are supposed to be singing competitors.

they are damn nice.

but i just don like one guy in there..

some guy that thinks that he's damn big cause his voice is good.

i have to admit that his voice is superb,

and that whatever song that he sings,

makes it sound as if that is his own song.

but puh-lease lah... he's not that great afterall.

don see what's so nice in him.

shant say who's that guy(in the album)..

but some of y'all shd know bah.

i hate him.

anw, enough of that guy man.

More piccas of their albums' covers!(WHOOTS!):

OMG man. im addicted to their mesmerizing voices!:O
lolxz. fika, sher and amanda say im crazy.
but im not okay!
this is called -addiction to songs.
gosh.
just like jiaying, addicted to superjunior.
im not really interested in them but wont say much.
(later those who like them come and kill me!)
really hoped i have another chance to meet them.
i hope 星光帮, or at least星光四少
can come singapore to perform again.
cant believe i miss their concert the other time.
gosh. i must be crazy to not go man.

anw, enough of this. love them,
but they are so far away.
back to my life and reality,
cher just said that exams are like in two months' time!
-jaw dropped-
thats siao lor
still got common and class tests.
this two+ months srsly isnt any slack period at all.
but i just cant get myself outta the slacking hols.
die.
this year streaming somemore leh.
don wana disappoint my chers, family, and myself.
got to listen in class le.
bye, for now.

dont want to let you go;

2008-06-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

Wednesday is a SUPERB day for me!
(Glad i did not live my life for nothing)
wonderful day, although it rained.
its hard for me to accept when ROD comes.
(a special bond that no one will want to destroy it)
I dreaded that day to come, and now, its nearing.
I've got to treasure my days.

IM IN LOVE WITH BRAVO'08!!!
Bravo, i have alot to say man. sry for not being able to be with you'all during the hard times, esp on promotion day. really sry. its hard on you guys(if not because of my stupid ankle, i would have been there for you).
sry for not attending ytd's act. too much acid. haha. but im okay now.
really, im dying to know what exactly happened, and what exactly is the HAPPY&GOOD thing!?
Someone, relieve me of this torturing and immense suspense before i choke.
thanks for being there for me through good and hard times. i really appreciate y'all.
LOVE YOU<3,bravo!

to my best buddy-cum-brother-cum-pal:
hey, dude. get over it. dont harp on it. you were there for me when i need you, so dont worry. i wont leave you in the lurch. i will help you get back on your feet and find your confidence back. show her that without her, you can carry on with your life better, prove her wrong. BROTHER, i have faith in you. C'mon, a little setback is nothing to you. believe in yourself, if not, at least believe in me. I WILL HELP YOU.(don say thanks, what are brothers for, anyway?) I know you too well. I know for a fact that you are going through one of your darkest periods of your life, just mention it and i will give you my hand, pull you up and continue, MOVE ON, BRO.(words of encouragement will do you good^^)
P.S. i can lend you a listening ear, if you want:)

2008-05-12T17:16:00.000-07:00

smile!

i love my 'partner-in-crime'-cum-combat fighting partner-cum-height buddy! Whoots!!;)

To the sickening one;
what the heck is your problem?
always saying its good, bad. should not be what im supposed to do.
this time last chance, next time punishment.
whatever okay.
i don care,
i shall say no more.
you should know who you are.

i know i have dropped my standard, in a way.
but i will work harder to meet her expectations of me,
i can feel the force that she is giving me,
providing me with strength to perserver and push myself to my limits that i can reach.
with her support(maye im really living in denial),
i will strive for my very best and make her feel proud of me.

2008-05-07T04:40:00.000-07:00

what exactly is your problem, loser?
stop poking into this matter and leave it as it is.
things between me and them are geeting worse because of you, this exaggerated freak that keeps blabbering my bad.
what do you want?
stop intruding my life.
if you think this is fun or you have to care about this matter, then you are TOTALLY wrong.
you are a total outsider and have no business in this.
stop telling them bad things about me,
you think you know everything, but you do not.
so stop being such a know-it-all and tell others about me.
so what if you are hanging out with them?
somehow, you are the cause of this.
do not think that im really pushing the blame on you,
seriously, you are such an effing butthole with an exaggerated blabbermouth.
if you think you are right, please, keep ALL your comments to yourself.
everytime the things that you spread about me gets to my ear,
i get more and more fed up with you.
and one day, if i turn around or walk up to you and gives you one tight slap,
i hope you know the reason why,
the big part of it is because you shoots your mouth off without caring about others' feelings and acts like a know-it-all bitch with good figure.
please, so what?
its no big deal being materalistic.
i bottle things up each time and this is so making my life miserable.
you already somehow stole a bunch of my frens and now all have turned their backs on me because of you and your big gossiping mouth.
if you affect my frenship with the other group of frens that i am damn happy with now,
believe me, you will get a tight slap from me,
and see what i will do to you(i dono what i am capable of)
get off my back and wth,
stop spreading my bad.
if you think that i have/created a lot of problems,
please think, you don create/have a lot of problems?
i don think so, in fact you are so much worse than me.
re-think about your past and you will find out that you are the thorn in the eyes of many.
do not always think that you are damn popular.
i hope you will mend your ways,
but i don think so, from the look of it now.
get out of my life, freak!

i really look forward to this,

its considered one of my happiest times in my life,

so loser, do not spoil my day.

2008-04-21T07:13:00.000-07:00

haha. today's crazy-ness started off with making afi look like an idiot outside my classroom waiting for me for about an hour(its really not my fault dude! i was having remedial, yawh!) then afi start to complain saying how long she has waited for me. (yeah, thanks for waiting, budd)

then we headed to KFC to have lunch. apparently, afi was like so hungry that she almost wanted to buy every single thing that was edible in the pasar malam that we passed through.(don kill me when you read this. hehe) and afi ate like a bear. whoa, i am very much afraid.

and lastly, our study date wasn't a study date at all. started of the "study date" with a few rounds of happyland adventure(DO NOT ever think its lame, its gets really addictive when you get the hook of it!) then we started playing pranks on people online, esp atikah. funny and i laughed in the library like it was my house. sorry, my bad, but it was seriously damn hilarious. ended up doing NOTHING at all, kind of regretted. but also, bonded with afi like siao, esp these few days, or maybe this period of time. yawh, thanks pal, for all the laughter and stuff.
and not to forget those people in class that always make me laugh and "bully" me, making my world more colourful. thanks;)

and then visited the toilet before heading home, (afi had a really high tide before she reached the toilet that tsunami almost came. haha. its damn lame, but somehow, its funny. lawl!) then had some random shots;) whee! love afi to bits!:)

just normal shots, but ended up with crazy poses. hahas.

we start to go bonkers, bleh:/

we look bored. and afi look like she just got selected to... stand a chance to get into the 'A' class ward in woodbridge hospital. haha. congrats, fika wika(:

and i didn't know why, but somehow, part of me did not retaliate to afi's punch and took a picture of it instead, ouch. its still hurting, afi. give me consultation fee!):<
we somehow had a hair fight and it was quite embarrassing, and unglam. lol. but, afi look worse than me. haha. served you right for starting fight. loser;)
afi is damn retarded here. she sat in the baby changing room. funny or what. she is staring at the very-weird-to-her water tap. she's a retard. haha.

fika look like she's being lifted off the ground. hahas;)

i seriously had a wonderful day today, although exams are like THIS WEEK! and was quite stressed by them, really felt relieved today, laugh like crazy till my stress were all gone! haha. felt great that the "study date" turned out to be so 'successful', all thanks to lamo fika wika pig. haha. phew, 2mr's timetable is relaxing, and i like it;)

2008-04-19T23:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!;)
went to some restaurant and the waitresses welcomed us with 欢迎光临. hahas. we waited for a period of time before we were seated. and i think that its worth the waiting time in the end. haha. and bro was damn lame. he posed for me to take his picture. lol.

this is their so called appetizer. and i think it looks gross at first. but when i taste it, its worse than i thought. hahas. this should be the only thing i don like about the restaurant bah;)
at first our table only had the appetizer, but just awhile later, our table was flooding with plates of delicacies.

not long, my noodles came. along with my bro's one too.

xuan and bro look like they love their food. hahas. and btw, xuan is eating fried wanton, hahas, she looks like shes sucking something.

and my ONLY regret was ordering this can of green tea as my drink. and i kena scolding. bleh:/ cause my mother say i stupid, never order their speciality drinks then order this. haiz:P
after a tough battle with my food, i finally ate it all up. hahas.

oh, and when desserts came,... i was shocked. didnt expect the portions to be so big. luckily, we didnt order much. CAUSE WE WERE ALREADY TOO FULL! hahas.
i didnt try this before. and my dad says its nice. its some thing called red bean banana something. and i think it taste gross. ewww. cant believe i ate this. bleh:/
yeah, i managed to finish my drink somehow. unbelievable, lol.
when we left, the table became empty again:)

i sound like i was advertising for the restaurant, but no joke, it rawks!;)

exams are nearing, and i haven done a single revision. the worse thing is, sci is the second paper. and im totally not prepared for it. shit. someone, motivate me to do better please. i forgotten my basics in all subjects and i think im a total failure in studies and life. why must we go to school? i really don want to take exams. it stressed me out and im already beginning to have strands of white hair. gosh. someone, please help me:/

2008-04-01T16:30:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS APRIL FOOL'S DAY!!!
MUAHAHAHA,
and this year's april fool is the lamest ever.
cracked damn lot of lame jokes:)
Joanne ah, joanne, tsk tsk.
last time i tripped over you, then now your turn.
So poor thing, must take care kay.
I think its because of fika wika's influence from ytd.
was still quite high today.
i mean, considering my mood for the past few days.
REALLY HAD A WONDERFUL TIME THESE TWO DAYS.
VERY HAPPY WITH FIKA.
GOOD JOB FIKA,
U DID A GOOD JOB BY LETTING ME SPEND YTD&TODAY HAPPILY,
AND CAREFREE. MAKE ME SO NOT STRESSED-UP.
THANKS ALOT, REALLY;)
i love those who keep me happy;)

I saw you on this day,
for the last time,
and i missed you.
hope you're fine.

Behaving like that makes me happy.
Innocence(:

2008-03-31T05:36:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED 16th,
SERGEANT-MAJOR!:)

today is the worst ever!
i had many mixed feelings,
and sometimes,
i myself did not know how i feel at that point of time.
It was a kind of weird feeling.
But i saw you-know-who!!!
Bleh!(fika was high-ing with me, but sher was like -_-") Hmph..
i was like jumping for joy in me, hehe, and my heart also most came out.
haha. She is damn nice la, sher has no taste, haha;)
but i was feeling moody for the first part of the day...
WHEN FIKA WIKA CAME,
SHE REALLY REALLY BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY!!!
THANKS FIKA, MY WONDERFUL BUDDY!
HAD A GREAT TIME WITH YOU,
ALWAYS DAMN HIGH WHEN YOU'RE AROUND!
YOU'RE THE BEST OF THE BEST!
LOVE YOU ALWAYS;D
(i know orange is your fav color:D)

anyway, back to topic,
went home with hazzie+NP gang, fika, sher and ziqi.
ziqi was quite quiet...zzz
haha
sowjanya and dhanusha and mun teng went crazy over dhanu's unglam pics.
IN the train somemore, lol. and they didn realise poor hazzie was squashed up in the corner.
until hazzie went "Ouch, you are squishing my boobs!"
haha, LOL man.
okay le, i GTG. busy. still haven touched hw. and its a freaking big pile.

what's exactly on your mind, i wonder?

2008-03-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

Is it the severe lack of sleep that is making me even more stressed up?
I haven not been sleeping properly for the week. Damn.\
And there are many projects waiting for me to finish them.
I am so the f___ed up now.
Shit.
And i am having severe mood swings during this period of time.
So do not ever irritate me, or i will get damn pissed off.
And i will just freakingly ignore you.
Responsibility and work is killing me.
So not in the mood to do work now.
But i got heavy workload.
Im dozing off now and then,
but im supposed to freaking finish the first 2pgs of the comic strip.
Wth. I am so tempted to heck care.
Pathetically, i have to continue.
Shit.

You know nothing, and yet you gave your comments about me. Who are you to me?

2008-03-20T04:16:00.000-07:00

i have not seen you for days,
and im beginning to miss you already.
why did you do that to me?
i really wonder.
was it me who had done something wrong,
that made you commit such a foolish mistake?
Please,
don make me miserable,
and i know you too well that deep in your heart,
you are just as heart-brokened as me.
scold me if you must, but do not roll your eyes and ignore me.
you are always #1 in my heart, TRUST ME.

cherish the people around you now for you will surely regret when something happens.
Its never too late, do that now.

2008-03-12T00:24:00.000-07:00

Rain.
Torturing me like hell.
Rain. Stop. Rain. Stop.
Gosh.
At buan's house now, using buan's comp, ate buan's stuff, drank buan's stuff, use buan's stuff.
She like my nanny for the day.
Lol.
Trying to do the project, but keep 分心-ing. Just like me, NOW.
Her house quite cute, love her fan though.
Love her mom, ordered pizza hut for us as lunch. Cool.
Took a taxi here, got lost, went a big round,
taxi-driver paiseh, cause he confused and drove a big round, so instead of $6.80, paid $5.
Haha. wasted time here. Really did art project for about 2.5h.
Lol.
Gosh, doctor said i cant run for until the end of the month.
Which means i will be missing out on A LOT of things.
CCA, NAPFA. And there goes my stamina.
OMG! I hate myself for falling down. Should have been so playful i guess. Damn.
Learnt my lesson le. Wont be like that le.(Buan is nagging at my ear now:<)
Wanying now also kay-po. Looking at the comp screen.
Yiqing staring at me. Damn funny sight.
Conclusion-Buan's house is weird. But her room is freaking NEAT.
Haha.
Buan is rushing me for the comp le. Heh. Bye, for now.

I don't wan to see you ever.

2008-03-05T03:31:00.000-08:00

whats wrong with me today?
before recess was in quite a good mood,
after recess became damn sian and moody.
then went home, thought there was going to be another acupunture session for me,
din expect that my dad had a last minute meeting.
took a nap in the afternoon, when i woke up,
i realised i was down with fever, head was throbbing pain, throat also pain. feel hot cold hot cold
at home no panadol, also dono what to do=/ feel like dying now. GOSH. help me=(
now i realised i was moody cause i was sick. Tian ah!
my fingers and toes felt like they were in the freezer for long,
and my head felt like it had entered a furnace...

i had enough of you, get out of my life, weirdo!

2008-03-04T04:28:00.000-08:00

I love you, fika wika! you're the best;D Three cheers for you. Whoots! haha. Had a normal day, just that somethings unwanted always happen. STOP BEING SUCH A PEST, WILL YOU!? JUST LEAVE US ALONE! dont you think that you're very irritating?

You left me alone to fight the rest of the battle. And i hate you for that.

2008-03-04T02:53:00.000-08:00

HELLO THIS IS AFIQAH HERE :D

done creating qiaoyi's blog and she better appreciate all my hardwork!! haha. & qiaoyi, you better not delete this post :D

HAHAHAHA!