im sinking deeper.
i know i've to get out of the 'quick sand' NOW.
but 'quick sand' is stopping myself from doing so.
i cant help it.
i wan to save myself too.
i wan to pull myself out from this.
but everytime when i almost make it out,
'quick sand' pulls and stop me from getting out.
why must it do this?
whenever i make a decision to get out,
part of me cant bear to,
but i have to bear with the unbearable,
and do what's better for me.
to get hurt now,
than to die later.
but 'quick sand' will never let me go.
'quick sand' don understand,
but its silently stopping me from making decisions good for myself.
its preventing me from letting go.
its not easy for me,
just to muster my courage to let my hands both free.
yet it pulls me back. always.
i will never get out of this 'quick sand';
forever.
i have never got myself in 'quick sand' before,
and i cant get myself out.
what do i do?
fika, any advice?
*don give me advice that you know i cant get myself to do*
i really have no idea how to help myself.
should i just let things be,
and get hurt again, again, and once again?
im in such a dilemma:(

letting go wasnt my choice;
@ 5:16 PM